Lately, I've been inundated with thoughts of our Angel Princess Tater Tot. It's hard to believe that in February of next year it will have been 4 years since she recieved her eternal healing.
As the months, and now years, have passed, I've found ways to cope in her absence. I'd be lying if I said that being without her earthly presence has gotten "easier." I spend a lot of time remembering the things that made her who she was (and still is in my mind). . .a "fighter."
Often times, people get so caught up in so much that really doesn't matter in the big scheme of things. When I think of how I get impatient in traffic, or frustrated about what to wear, and all of the other trivial things I can get bent out of shape over; I realize that at end of the day, those things mean nothing. What meant something to me was my Princess Tater Tot. I miss her. I miss her so much. . . . Who cares about traffic and what to wear right?!? If only. . .
I've learned during my 37 years on this earth that for everything, there is a reason. I don't understand sometimes what they are, but I know that they exist. God in His infinite wisdom has a plan. While I don't think that He wanted to see me grieve and long for my daughter to be back in my arms, I do believe that He knew how I could use my grief to glorify Him. Everyone has an appointed time to die and for my sweet Princess it was her time, for whatever the reason. I envy her. Her world is now perfect. I just miss her.
I pray that in my daily walk I can use what I have learned and experienced raising, loving and advocating for my princess to someone else's advantage. If I can make someone else's journey a little more tolerable, at least I know that my grief isn't in vain. I will forever carry my Angel Princess Tater Tot in my heart. She owns a part of my soul.
May you walk around heaven all day my Princess! Mommy loves you dearly!
As the months, and now years, have passed, I've found ways to cope in her absence. I'd be lying if I said that being without her earthly presence has gotten "easier." I spend a lot of time remembering the things that made her who she was (and still is in my mind). . .a "fighter."
Often times, people get so caught up in so much that really doesn't matter in the big scheme of things. When I think of how I get impatient in traffic, or frustrated about what to wear, and all of the other trivial things I can get bent out of shape over; I realize that at end of the day, those things mean nothing. What meant something to me was my Princess Tater Tot. I miss her. I miss her so much. . . . Who cares about traffic and what to wear right?!? If only. . .
I've learned during my 37 years on this earth that for everything, there is a reason. I don't understand sometimes what they are, but I know that they exist. God in His infinite wisdom has a plan. While I don't think that He wanted to see me grieve and long for my daughter to be back in my arms, I do believe that He knew how I could use my grief to glorify Him. Everyone has an appointed time to die and for my sweet Princess it was her time, for whatever the reason. I envy her. Her world is now perfect. I just miss her.
I pray that in my daily walk I can use what I have learned and experienced raising, loving and advocating for my princess to someone else's advantage. If I can make someone else's journey a little more tolerable, at least I know that my grief isn't in vain. I will forever carry my Angel Princess Tater Tot in my heart. She owns a part of my soul.
May you walk around heaven all day my Princess! Mommy loves you dearly!
No comments:
Post a Comment